random thoughts

do you ever think about what would happen if things could have been different? if for a split second, you could change the decisions you made in the past, and ultimately change your present situation.

a weird thing occurred today.. i saw 4 guys whom i dated at one point in my life (from high school to college to postgrad).. call it fate! as if everything was planned or meant to happen.. that today i would see all of them and have this really awkward moment when you dont know what you would say to them.. when you will just smile and acknowledge their presence for lack of better things to say.

the first guy, i ran into in the hospital, the second in Ayala Alabang with his girlfriend and the last two at the same dinner party. the last guy (the one i dated in high school) comes up to me and tells me he’s married now and introduces me to his new wife who also happens to be very pregnant.. and that made me realize how old we all really are! that by the age of 25, i will be taking the medical board exams (hopefully!) while they face their biggest life challenges yet and try to raise/provide for their kids.  ive always wondered what age i would really want to settle down.. definitely not now.

i have a few friends who seem to be committment phobic, or maybe too career driven perhaps.  that by the age of 34, they’re still on the look-out for the one.

that i worry about the most trivial or unnecessary things (like whether i should get the ipod nano or video) while my peers try to take on new responsibilities.

wala just thinking aloud! we really are getting old..