random thoughts

what was on my friendster profile 2 months ago? im deleting it now… but i want to remember what i wrote before…

"People often go to me for advice- mostly about their love life.. recently ive been helping my friends solve their problems and the funny thing is, i couldnt solve my own. needless to say, im enjoying my single life now, because until the right one God has planned for me comes along, i will wait.

"Love has its own time, and its own reasons for coming and going. Be glad it came to life for a moment in your life. If you keep your heart open, it will come again."

sometime 2-3 months ago, i think ive had enough of dating guys who are bolero, babaero and gimmickero.. not to insult my well-meaning friends and those nice guys i dated din naman but i dunno.. i havent found any real connections. to some it may be a surprise and they would find it hard to believe but YES, i havent had a boyfriend in 5 years..

Yaku- end of October 2005: I was hanging out with friends and sila Edsel and Arvin are telling me, oh ditch that guy.. it happens to the best of us.. etc etc. I was feeling down kc i just dated another bolero and kinda fell for it.. *damn* Doray says, hindi naman sya gwapo and all that.. funny how ur friends try to cheer you up! ive nearly lost my trust in guys and said i wont date for a while siguro muna while my best girlfriends (mia, tin and colleen) also set out to arrange dinner with me to go guy bashing..

so that night, in Yaku, Arvin tells me, "hahanapan kita ng date. ano bang requirements mo?" i tell him, "simple lang..  basta matangkad, mabait and hindi gimmickero and babaero".. so he says "naku matangkad na lang, impossible na yung dalawa eh. hindi na kita matutulungan."

ive always been seen as a very outgoing person, typical extrovert. lots of friends.. likes to go out a lot.. gimmickera nga daw.. it’s fun but it’s lonely din to be like that.. i havent found the right guy despite going out every week, meeting a  lot of people… so my blockmates are used to hearing my kwentos about a new boylet.. even earning the term "RK" one time.. (ask me na lang what RK is) so if theres one thing I told Gio when we met, "i may be gimmikera but I still have my values intact." 

so it’s a surprise how an extrovert and an introvert suddenly clicks during pedia rotation.. one likes to go out, the other likes to stay home and read books.. the girl likes to eat in nice restaurants, PGH coop and has not eaten yet in the mess hall, and the guy is super tipid and eats in the mess hall everyday.. the minimum amount i spend for food in a week is 500 bucks, and him? 10 bucks!

I play badminton once in a while and he works out in the gym like a maniac.. im your typical Manila girl, and he is from Cagayan de Oro.. you can say we both led a comfortable and pampered life but we chose different ways how to live it. I told him i got my whole life figured out.. Im taking up dermatology residency after med school.. maybe travel.. i was a bit self-centered.. very independent, and still opinionated.

until i met Gio.

He’s the ONLY guy who had the guts to ask my dad for persmission to take me out to dinner.. imagine that? my dad IS after all, known in PGH as a scary (read: VERY scary) consultant.. so who is this intern asking his eldest daughter out? so the entire christmas break, he made an effort to go to QC everyday except on duty days to visit me.. nagccommute pa yan and one time, got lost coz he had no idea where i lived. haha.. my family likes him a lot coz they made him sing in the car (*how embarassing for me*) and he willingly obliged.. he even brought us durian from their farm and "forced" us to eat it.. hehehe.. i told him "acquired taste lang yan"..

im very happy right now.. ang dme kong kwento.. im not the same girl i was 3 months ago when the "other guy i used to date" asked me why i was like this? why i dont want to have a boyfriend?..  i said, "Im not cynical, im just being cautious."

Life seldom works out the way you plan it. Sometimes things happen and you have to be brave enough to take a leap of faith..

so last Thursday, in Yaku also, i told Arvin, "Arvin pano ba yan? do you remember our conversation several months ago? nahanap ko na.." and he says "You’re the bomb! You did the impossible."